the way it is

The day...
Feeling down... If that day will come it will just arrive so why am i feeling so down?
Haiz... do i really want it to be this way?
The very moment the thought in me was just to dissapear from the scene and not seeing anything... Cos i think i just don't have the courage to face the fact... I just don't have the courage.
The day would come so i should have been prepared? or is just that i just don't want to face the truth? Am i being stupid by doing that or... I am always stupid>
Why do i always have to say the things i dun wan to say or dun mean it... whyh why why??
I sometimes just hate myself....
Do i really want it to be that way?.... DO I????
Forgive me><... I just wanna look at you...