What's on my mind?

Ha...where should I start? ha ha... tell you all what happen today first bah... I went for my practical practice!!!!!! YEAH !!!
that was fun man!!!!
ha ha ha...
Guess which is the most funniest part???
ha ha... My sis got shock when she see me turn... as i didn't really release the acceleration pedal and turn... ha ha ha... Like DYTONA sia!!!! ha ha... Then the instructor got a shock... cos... I stop very near the vehicle infront ha ha ha!!!!! LALALA!!!!



Can anyone tell me what happen to me? Shouldn't I feel happy when he is close to me... Why can't i treat me like normal??? haiz....
what's on me... People view me i should be happi but why why...:'(
Why when i noe he no longer care i would feel the sadness why??
='(


I JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU RIGHT NOW!!!!

The EMO day!!!!

To start off....
Wanted to post something i wrote at BBDC while thinking of him during my practice paper.
(The eye for him)
" If possible of course I would want to be by your side. But if fate is to be so cruel or rather i dun realli know how to phrase it, I would just hide behind something or someone to watch you sliently. To make sure that everything is going well for you. If you sentence me to death without a reason, I would not stop you. Course without you to look out for, the world is just the same no matter where i go. =) Chill man... I am just a normal person, not being able to do much for you =( sorry =( Just trying my best to make you happy =) If you hate to see me, I would try my best to make sure that there is something or someone to block me from being seen by you=) cos i just want you to be happy the way you want! =) (The way you want it to be)


Let's start....
About what happen yesterday... Ha ha althought it may seems to be abit lame by what they do but it is quite fun as long as they are happy=)
Sometimes, I just hope friends can be there!
I dun realli know should I be happy or sad....
I might try to look happy with a sad heart... But is like I feel happy that i can see him being happy.... But in another words it may mean that i dun mean much to him as he is still the way he is or rather he might be even happier than being my goosd friend... When i see him talking to msn until so happy i would wonder who makes him so Happy. And he seems to be happy viewing other people's picture through friendster.

But I have no choice but to force myself to think that he is Happy especially without me... When it comes to at night... It would be worst the feeling of loneliness would be higher.
however, better than nothing at least he is talking to me now.... I mean not talk but playing with me...>.<

AM I HAPPY THE WAY I AM NOW?

The way to BBDC!!!

ok man I should I should start with the day whereby i went for my Final Theory Test which is on 21st of jun... The whole class know about it as my Facilitator wish me all the best before i went off for my test....

And of course ha ha this is the cute little bus which i wish to sit and told my friend this type of bus is cute althought they are old.... And this is the bus that bring me the smooth journey to pass my test =) Thanks Man Cute Bus!!!!

And this are just some of the features in the bus... Look at the door man!!!! So unique... It open by sliding wor ha ha ha!!!!

Just Love it cos it is unique enough Just LOve the way it looks...

Somethings everything just can be appreciated... And Love the way it is.... Just like normal Human =)

And this is just one of the donut i ate at BBDC... During holidays... when i went for morning practice paper... And after i pass my FTT (final theory test...) I would focus on my practice for the driving =)

JOLene need to Jia you le!!!!! ha ha ha...

And this picture shows the pervertic julien... who acting to peep at someone's undergarment ha ha ha... Tat's lame man!!! real lame sia!!! Wth.... Cold sweat dripping -.-".

Okay as per requested... i better blog today if not i sure kena beat man ha ha ha...
Haiz... Actually recently quite emo...><>
The someone seems to left... Haiz...
I am Selfish so i choose to avoid...
And furthermore i am realli very very very tired le... Haiz help!!!!i miss u!!!! But haiz...
Today the ah min hor... ha ha... Blur lol... Ha ha... Do lame thingy sia... Ha Ha Ha...
U know what people use the kid use de toilet bowl...
and when we on the way to take train she ask me...
are we going to take train ah dot...
then nvm ha ha I bought a fake sun flower to cheer her up... in the end she use it as a weapon to hit me... Evil sia... ha ha ha...
Haiz... Actually seriously saying i realli miss the last him before he change lol haiz... Just hope it can turn back... but haiz..
Dun think so...
Haiz so i have to get use to it le bah...
No matter wat luckily i still have U GUYS by my side u GUYS ROX man!!!!
I miss u all =(
I miss him! haiz...
opps scratch kor kor they all when playing basketball again... sry wor!!!
ps ar!!!!
I dunno why when i hear what that rad say!!! I realli very angry feel like killing him he realli disappoint me sia... Hate him!!!!
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If U mean to hurt me !!! I would rather pass u a knife and u stab it would be less pain rather than wat i having now!!! THE WAY U TREAT GOOD FRIEND I GOT NOTHING TO SAY!!!><
NO MATTER WAT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW I AM ALWAYS HERE...
AND ALL MY FRIEND OUT THERE... JOLENE IS ALWAYS HERE... MY SHOULDER IS ALWAYS AVAILABLE =) CHILL MAN!!!

I LOVE THEM!!!!!

Ha Ha Ha.... guess you all noe wat's that dun need me to say ha ha ha.... That's NITE green apple flavour..... ha ha ha.... Huiyi trying to stop me from buying but can't... Sorri cos i realli very fan... cos i make someone angry... gaga.... ><><.... I dun wan him to angry with me.... Cos the things i say i dun mean it... Jolene is always saying things that she dun wana say de....><>

Ha ha... That's me and Huiyi blur face sia... Ha Ha Ha... lala... Know why no min...??? Cos she dun give me face dun wan take with me ha ha ha.... Come lets smack her ha ha ha....><>

I miss the sec sch life man!!!! I MISS THEM!!!! I miss BEL WAN AND ALL...><><><

MIN AND YI.... Thanks for being there for me all along... HAHA... although i am down u all are always there.... BTW.... I think i must really think before i say things... So that i won't hurt u all and pissed everyone off...><>

If the someone whom I made him angry happen to view my blog which i dun think he will see..... SOrry for being like that i am always saying things which i shouldn't say and dun wish to say de... ZHEN DE HEN BAO QIan!!!!!!!

MIN MIN AND YIYI!!!! THANKS FOR ACCING ME WHEN I AM DOWN AND THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ME!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

the way it is

The day...
Feeling down... If that day will come it will just arrive so why am i feeling so down?
Haiz... do i really want it to be this way?
The very moment the thought in me was just to dissapear from the scene and not seeing anything... Cos i think i just don't have the courage to face the fact... I just don't have the courage.
The day would come so i should have been prepared? or is just that i just don't want to face the truth? Am i being stupid by doing that or... I am always stupid>
Why do i always have to say the things i dun wan to say or dun mean it... whyh why why??
I sometimes just hate myself....
Do i really want it to be that way?.... DO I????
Forgive me><... I just wanna look at you...